After that day nothing was ever the some (no sh**) but I had no idea what had happend and would only have flashes of these events mostly around my father and that was not good cause he would beat the snot out of me and then I'd forget again for awhile.
I remember being brought to a bad place for a child it was a sex toy store but like bondage and that kind of thing in the worst hood in chicogo Il and when he brought me in the man behind the counter told my father you can't bring him in here and he told him this is my son I can do what ever I want with him and so I was brought into the back and raper by a whole bunch of different men including my father what a day to remember.
It feels like it was just yesterday and I'm reliving these things daily and can't stop from thinking of them it goes on and on and on>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
So now that I know all this I like to call my father once and a while and talk normal and then out of the blue drop some thing like remember that house you were renting on the south side of chicogo "where he raper my sister and tryed to killed me" he said ya ya I do and then the call ended very shortly after that
I like to have some feeling of redemshion or something at least I don't try to kill him like he did to me.